I am sitting in front of my warm fireplace this early morning. It is yet another cold, dark day with chilly -20 temperatures. My mind and body has been busy reflecting.
- I want my heart to be open this year, to feel and give love.
- I want to give 110% to my family (even if I am tired and cranky).
- I want to make silly frozen hearts with my daughter & son, (actually they look really cool).
- I want to do more and be more.
Yesterday I heard my parent’s neighbour died suddenly. A man 60 years old, playing hockey on a Sunday night, took a shower, and fell down and that was it. I didn’t know this man very well. But he always had a friendly smile and I am told was a loving husband and father. “How could that be, I just waved to him several weeks ago”. I thought of his poor family left to carry on without him. I guess we always feel shocked when someone we know, whether they are close or not passes. I think it is our little “wake-up” call, which we all sometimes need to kick it into high gear!
Last night I was lying in bed trying to get to sleep. Maybe it was too much coffee, or yet another late night. I have become a night owl of sorts, which makes me mad as I was never one to stay up so late. I was trying to settle down, close my eyes and count my sheep. Suddenly I could feel my heart pounding so deeply, I got a little scared. I said a little prayer to myself. “Please give me more time!” Having had my kids late in life, I thought of all the things I still want to do with them. I want to stop fussing over the little unimportant things, (like the messy house or the burnt toast), and just spend more quality time with family and friends.
I guess it was my “wake-up call of sorts”. I thought of my parents neighbour who was ready to retire, just built a little hobby shop and had a new grand baby. He walked out like every other Sunday to play a game of hockey. Did he kiss his wife and hug his kids that night or did he simply walk out thinking he had some more time…….
This weekend I am going to make some frozen hearts with my Meaghan and Noah…. maybe we will will even jazz them up with some funky food colouring. My heart will be warm, even though it will be cold and snowy. I hope you can take some time and build your frozen hearts soon.
Talk soon ~
Nancy